Spring is FINALLY in the air. Hallefreakinglujah!
Last winter (I’m speaking like we are OUT of it) seemed like the longest I’ve ever experienced. The darkness. The seemingly permanent greyness of the days. I struggled and I felt like I went into hibernation. I craved so much sleep I thought I wondered if I was getting ill. Not that I felt ill. I just felt sleepy. In fact, it feels like I slept walked through that winter.
And now the DAY LIGHT is here. And there is sunshine (more often!) and I’m enjoying being out in nature and hearing the birds sing again. As soon as I hit publish on this post, I’m going out for a walk.
I'm rebelling. Against myself. Against not speaking the truth. MY truth. It's time to go deeper.
It's time to release the parts of me that I have been holding back. It's easy to keep secrets and harder to speak of them, but then I'm never usually one to chose the easy road.
And if you are going to continue on this journey with me in whatever shape that takes, it's about time you know who I really am and what I stand for.
If you've read any of my writing, you know that I can be forceful in my opinion. I am PASSIONATE about what I do and helping others to break free from whatever is holding them back so that they can live a life fully on their terms and make their own rules. I help people break free from having a boss, to BEING the boss. I help people take the giant leaps to live full out. That kind of stuff takes courage and commitment. I know. I've been there. I AM there and continue to be. Living a life less ordinary is a continual evolution. You don't just arrive at a place, and then stop.
And sometimes I get angry in my writing and my message to you. I get angry because I want to shake you out of complacency. I get angry because I don't want you to live another day NOT doing what you love. I get angry about that because I know how soul destroying it is. I get angry because I want you to turn your thoughts into ACTION instead of getting paralysed in indecision. I get angry because I hear excuses that, quite frankly, I think are pathetic. There is NO excuse for not going for what it is you say you want.
And WHY do I get so annoyed with some of the excuses I hear? Because I've made the very same excuses to myself.
And WHY do I get so angry and impassioned in my my message? Because of everything I've been through in my life and work. And mainly because of the things I've NEVER told you about.
So, it's like you are getting half the story; the angry, impassioned part, but without the back story.
Your are getting the anger, but without the FULL truth.
What would my life be like if I finally lived my truth?
What would my life be like if finally spoke about all the things I've remained silent about?
What if I shared the stuff that scared me?
What if I decided to not be scared anymore?
What if I gave myself permission to break free from the mental shackles of not telling my story. (The truth will set you free, they say. Well, let's see shall we?!)
What if my full story could help someone on their journey?
I have my own 'What ifs'; reasons to say nothing and carry on as usual. I've gone through them all and they are still not a reason for not speaking out and sharing my story; careers, money, business, relationships and the rest.
My truth may not be the prettiest at times, though sometimes it'll be so bizarre you probably won't believe half of it!
But pretty or not, we all have experiences in life that can feel like a kiss, or hurt and leave a scar or are just so surreal that you wonder if they really happened at all!
The truth carries a risk, or two or more!
I want to live a life without limits and without apology doing what I love. I want to help others to do the same. It's time for the truth.